First thoughts- By Kevin

So if you're going to understand why we are heading toward adoption you need to know where we've come. To those of you who know us well, you know how much we love Austin. He's amazing, in fact I tell him that and make him tell me that he's amazing too. It's pretty cute hearing him as he's sitting in his car seat say, "Dad, I'm amazing". I want him to know that because I believe that God did make him amazing and he needs to have that confidence.

Our memories of Austin's arrival is so vivid. Even though that was over 4 years ago, we can still remember all the details of when he was born and when we found out. I remember one specific day, we were missionaries traveling to raise our funding and were back in Kansas for a few weeks between meetings. I was spending my days doing some construction work with a friend and I got the phone call. She was so excited to tell me that she thought she might be pregnant. I, typical guy, was excited, but also freaked out. Days later we found out that yet again, it was false and these negative tests would come again and again and again. Thankfully God had greater plans. Four years we prayed for Austin to come, now four years after he arrived we are back to the place we started at. Knowing that God wants us to have more children but having no way to get there is so frustrating and discouraging, but I always tell Crystal, If God wants us to have more kids, he just has a cooler way of getting them to us. I believe that with all my heart. Somewhere out there is a little boy or girl that was born to be in our family and I can't wait to meet them.